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studious . perceptive . principled
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meticulous . reflective . stubborn
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insecure . rude . workaholic
SUMMARY
Shougo is a highly perceptive and studious individual, and they try to speak with as much of a sense of intelligence as possible. They have a hunger for knowledge and . It’s easy to mistake this for them being cool and collected, but most of the time they're just anxious. Which might not always show in their voice, but talk to them long enough and the stoicism starts to crack. Sure, things such as gore and terrifying legends of monsters lurking in the dark rarely get under their skin, but they get flustered easily in the face of more mundane things like trying to calculate a tip at a restaurant or someone giving him a handshake for a bit too long. It takes a while for Shougo to get used to being around people, but they still seek validation and praise from their peers as much as they might hide it by (poorly) trying to act unbothered or annoyed.
Shougo is a meticulous perfectionist and holds themself to a high standard, but their confidence sadly isn’t high enough to back that up, which results in a crippling sense of imposter syndrome along with taking failure especially hard. They're quick to pin blame on themself rather than circumstances out of their control and end up working themself up into further anxiety as a result. Shougo is also a slight workaholic who loses track of time and their personal needs while focused on something, which definitely does not help their stress levels. Basically they're constantly burning the candle at both ends.
Their crippling insecurity and imposter syndrome also means that Shougo is frequently on edge, and that combined with their natural tendency to scrutinize everything means they can come off as particularly rude whether on accident or on purpose. They aren’t always one hundred percent sure how to phrase things delicately even when they’re making an effort to be nice, and when they aren’t they tend to curse up a storm and be extremely blunt.
Their sense of identity is also a bit in flux, which scares them. They frequently worry about being a danger to people without even realizing it or that they’re actually doomed to be a monster regardless of what they try. They want to be a good person and make the effort to do so, but it’s always in the back of their head that they might not be.